Like all Relationships that appear, it was not one I could make happen. It just arose spontaniously.
And I just realized how poorly I treat her.
And I just realized how selfish I am.
And perhaps I want to clarify the word Selfishness. Simply, I think too much about myself.
But its so innocent that I do this, I need refuge, which the great mother provides.
Guilty towards the mother? Do I owe the great mother something? Must I still earn Love?
The Rain once said to me: “My only job is Rain across the land. I shower my love indiscriminately. If you don’t want to receive me, so be it.”
That’s when I realized, there was nothing I could do to earn love. Nothing I could do to please her. And yet those things are allowed there, but there are no conditions to Love.